hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Well as you can imagine I didnt win the $12,500 package, went out rather early like 6000-ish.

But in the end it didnt even fucking matter if I was running like god.

Id say oh, 3 hours or so after I busted the power went out, ok thats fine it was raining a little but not much of a storm or anything. I assumed it would probably come back on in 5-10 minutes which would have been fine.

After a fucking loonnggggg wait, the power came back on at 12:30 am - so it was out for about 6 hours.

I was fucking doomed from the beginning to lose sadly, the tournament took about 9 hours, and I would have got my power back when the tournament ended, rendering it impossible to succeed in any way.

So basically just burned $370 for fun. Sweet, nice birthday present thanks parents!

I managed to get silverstar on pokerstars this month, it only took about 4 days of cashgame play. So fun playing with like $150 dollars playing 50nl, playing 3 tables with your roll on the line.

I have to play pretty nit not to go bust, thus when I do win hands its actually with big hands only, not much mixing it up.

Through trial and error im quickly finding out 2 things about my poker play. Critical things.

I love cash games and show considerable and more inportantly consistant profit most of the time I play. (not tired/drunk/high) The only big leak I find is playing hands like AJ/KQ/KJ suited etc in EP or OOP to a raiser, ive calculated that its best to just fold. - will fix immediately.

I like touraments but for some reason for every small win like $500 here, $800 here, most of the time im bleeding money profusely. Ive probably made about $4k from cash games, and lost about $3k playing tournaments overall. Wonderful?

My mom said she would stake me if I did not get mad or yell which I have done before when I lose. I tell her fine but I need some way to unleash my anger when I do have a big losing session or bad beats galore.

We decided that I would get staked for $3,000 and play $100nl plus I would buy a punching bag +gloves and hang it in the garage to use instead of swearing loudly every word in the book. I must say I do not do this often and when I do its because im not rolled for what im playing and I become frustrated because its impossible to take upswings and d0wnsw0ngs.

To me this seems like a superb oppertunity, I have a fairly good sample size of hands to show im a winning player at cash, losing player in tournaments. 30 buy-ins for 100nl would be amazing.... the only time ive had more than 3k cash was on cakepoker, and I withdrew most of it, and tournaments ATE most of it! Definately the most mis-managed withdraw ive ever made.

So im thinking if I JUST play cash and play my A game, why on earth would I not succeed?

Exceptions would be if I managed to win a seat to a $55 tourney, or $215 tourney. (Both of these consumed about $1.5-2k so far) and if I win the seat I must play. Also im only allowed 1 try to win the seat, if I fail I will not spend multiple amounts trying to get in/buy in completely. I will simply not play, as it wasnt ment to be.

I will not even consider lesser tournaments.

I think my plan is sure-fire, as long as I stick the rules I explained above I will be successful. Ive got probably a month or so before I get staked by her anyway, shes waiting on some money to arrive.

NO MORE DAMN TOURNAMENTS!