Update.

Well I dont have too much to add at the moment.... to the guy that asked in the comment about CALL OF DUTY 4, I play on PS3. My sign name is IPlayCards4Food.

My life is currently quite boring, I deposited $50 on cakepoker and played a few tournaments before getting to $500 or so...

As you can imagine I was quite happy with my results but it wasnt ment to be I guess. I donked off alot of the money on more tournaments and playing 100nl, I run so bad lol.

I should have played 50nl... maybe even 25nl but cake poker is just so fishy I wanted to play hiiiighhherrr, BEEEEEP wrong answer.

Its no big deal. I can handle losing my profits, its a part of the game, it just sucks.

If anyone knows anything about poker, its that it truely takes money to make money. If you have a bankroll of $100 and grind away at 10nl or less, its going to be slow and ponderous. I personally have played 50nl-400nl at different points of this year, and my comfort zone is 200nl. I decided on 200nl because it seems to be the ideal limit if you want to make a living playing online poker. A good mix of solid players, and loose fish. (More solid players but you just need to find out how to exploit them).

Well if anyone remembers im waiting on a loan I guess you can call it, from my mom. I asked her if she would help me get started playing 200nl, in order to do that I need about $10,000 if im going to play 6-8 tables professionally. Professionally as in im doing nothing else, concentrating on my game and playing poker poker poker for at least 8 hours per day. This 10k will give me 50 buy-ins, a recommended safety net if im playing with $1200-$1600 on the tables at once. Now ive played 200nl before with about $1500-2000 (not smart) and its brutal if you take a beat and lose your stack, but its really just mental in my opinion, if I have 10k to use I doubt it will affect me.

Some may not like this but to me this is my dream, I want to build up a massive bankroll online and achieve supernova status on PokerStars. Also I fully entend to pay her back once I get established, there is no time limit when I need to though, so no pressure whatsoever.

We are selling our lakefront house on lake simcoe if anyone is curious HOW my mom could just hand over $10k, its worth about $600,000. We are moving simply because my mom wants a newer house, more modern, this house is cottage-like and we dont even have a boat anymore (sold) so she doesnt seem to want to stay. Its fine with me, I dont really swim or anything so could care less if we live on the lake or not.

Gah this is such a close reality yet it seems so far away, its so emotionally devastating when you find something you truely want to do with your life, yet you cannot do it. This is my calling, ive never been this interested in a specific hobby before in my life. If I knew I was a losing player I would not even waste my time typing this.